Managed to avoid that guy that asked me out and delay rejecting that date to Disneyland which he insinuated he was going to pay for. My ex-bf/best friend is going to see the show I’m teching for (the guy who asked me out is also tech) tomorrow and offered to make out with me in front of the guy but I think I need to stop being a wimp and tell him I don’t want to date him.

I just got asked out on a date by a man when all I’ve been thinking about all day is how I’d like to date a woman.

I told him I’d have to think about it but what I really meant was ” I need time to figure out how I’m going to turn you down because I’ve been conditioned to be passive and coddle men’s feelings and am finding it difficult and anxiety inducing to give you a straightforward answer.” I also told him I was a women’s studies major in hopes of him losing interest but other people started talking to us so I couldn’t gage his reaction.